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Edna: Delight

God is my inspiration, my source of strength, my tower of refuge.
I'm deeply in love with photography. Music is essential in my life.

This journal consists of things I want to remember.
I don't only record the sunny hours. I record downpours too.

This page is necessary because I can't remember every single thing as clearly as what this can tell me.
I'm busy with college life so I won't update much on this space.

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23 May 2012 @ 11:01 pm

Daily Visuals

( Forever scrolling )
My photo journal from the past two/ three weeks? Lost track of time.

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23 May 2012 @ 09:37 pm

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07 May 2012 @ 09:45 pm

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We all have journeys we must take.

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03 May 2012 @ 07:07 pm

Red Velvet Cupcakes

Impromptu decision to bake Red Velvet Cupcake.
I really love the texture of the cupcakes. The first batch, I baked it. The second batch, I steamed it.
The reason for steaming it? The oven broke down at an untimely time. But the cake turned out really well!
The recipe I used? Jamie Oliver's recipe with a few editing.

Caution: If you're going to try to make the icing, don't put 300g of casting sugar!
Instead, you can reduce to 100g because it's really too sweet.

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03 May 2012 @ 06:27 pm

Daily Visuals

01 Tao Huey @ Boon Lay Market is super smooth and tasty. (Must try)
02 Lately, I've been frequenting Coffee Bean to do my work with wife.
03 Stepped down from Hockey.
04 Ice Kachang before Sports day. The sun was blazing hot that very afternoon.
(fyi, sports day was after school on a friday.)
05 Hockey team dinner @ Taman Food Centre.
06 Red Velvet Cake from Coffee Bean.
(Not as nice as the one Amalina baked for us for Valentine's)
07 Mandarin detailed collar dress from The Velvet Dolls.
08 Rabbit and Chinchilla-shaped milk treats for the bunnies.
09 Black pepper chicken rice (canteen food)
10 Dinner with Jenny, Shi Hwee and Jeslyn (Hockey mates) @ KFC - Banddito Pocket.
11 My hockey Nike shoe have served me well for the past 2 years.
12 Peach fruit tart from our school's new cafe - Good News Cafe. I love the tart!
13 Baked Potato from the cafe too I really dislike the taste.
14 Eden scratched my thigh. It was bleeding so sissy got the stuffs to help dress the wound.
15 Banana Walnut Loaf from Coffee Bean.
16 Tiong Bahru Lor Mee for breakfast.

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01 May 2012 @ 10:51 am

Constant catch-up / I'll never match up

Red Velvet Cupcakes freshly baked yesterday night.

Haven't had such a wonderful morning for months. All alone at home, enjoying privacy. It's definitely a beautiful day to look forward to. Seated in the dining room, enjoying the sunlight, listening to Be lifted higher by Israel Houghton while reading my church's magazine. It's been long since I last felt this carefree. I must say I'm really tired from trying to catch up with the workload that teachers have given and what A level has gotten me into. Yet I know there's no time for me to even think of giving up. The constant catch-up I have to follow is wearing me out. I must chase after it relentlessly lest I fall behind. That's what I detest. Chasing after something that I never once enjoyed.

I have 2 options left.
(1) Study
(2) Continue to study

I've missed out many things that nothing can ever bring me back to the moment. Time is precious but she doesn't know how precious she is. She keeps ticking. Time waits for no one. Once it's gone, she'll never be back. But I know my Daddy God is a God of increase. Things that I've missed out, He'll definitely multiply it back to me qualitatively and quantitatively. I would love to chase after His Words relentlessly and count on Him for success than to rely on human efforts that would inevitably fail.

My reassurance, my Comforter, my all in all.

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27 April 2012 @ 11:52 pm

We've graduated from Hockey.

( Team spirit. )

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21 April 2012 @ 08:52 pm

Dinner affair

The chef uses finely chopped garlic for the spread which gives it a raw taste of garlic.
As a garlic lover, I absolutely love the way the chef prepared this bread.
The taste of garlic is rich.

Bather’s Cafe & Restaurant
41 Sunset Way #01-02/03
Clementi Arcade Singapore

Sunset way + Biopolis @ One-North + Cold Storage + Snap away + Home.

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13 April 2012 @ 10:44 pm

Instagram visuals

01 Woke up early for breakfast with family and thought that a picture with Eden was appropriate. Such a cutie pie.
02 Burger King @ ARC. I love the wood setting they have in this outlet.

03 Got rid of the pegs and thick strings from the wall.
04 Outcome of the new layout.

05 Micasa Condo.
06 I love the arty fatsy window frame. It's just way too cool.

07 / 08 Red, blue and white. I love the contrast.

09 Room decor in The Rainforest's showroom.
10 New pair of sports shoes.

11 Eden looks like a loaf of bread. Cuteness level: Maximum.
12 Forever nomming.

13 Resurrection Sunday - taken otw to church.
14 Peeking sun is in every way, glorious.

15 Random shot taken at grand aunt's house, my cozy corner
16 Random shot of my classmate's shoe and mine.

17 Chili's @ JCube with Sissy.
18 Quesadillas + Baked Potato Soup

19 Cheesy. Delicious food! I love the salsa sauce and sour cream. Perfect combination.
20 Heinz's ketchup is the best on earth.

21 The molten chocolate cake is definitely a must-try item. Hot and spongy chocolate mud cake with cold vanilla ice cream.
22 The thing that kept me going for the day before hockey match starts.

23 Otw to Seng Kang for our first A Division match.
24 It was raining there with lightning alert on.

25 He can really pose.
26 This saved my tummy ache.

27 Mints
28 Fruit tips to cheer myself on, the day after the match.

29 Vibrant plaster from Kristine for my minor cut gotten from Eden's cage.
30 Sissy baked chocolate raspberry cake for me to cheer me on after the match.

I must say I have never felt so disappointed in myself before in my life. I may have tried my best and then failed. That's one form of disappointment. However, this time round, the disappointment I felt was nothing like that. It was when you know you could've given your all but you don't know what was holding you back and you just couldn't muster the courage to go on and put up a good fight. You didn't even try. The pain is when you didn't even try. That very moment when you feel that you're a loser and someone who doesn't even have the courage to go up and support your team mates. One of the highest level of disappointment. Something I couldn't forgive myself. Perhaps putting too much pressure on myself. The next match, I'll do what I can do in the pitch. I will.

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02 April 2012 @ 08:43 pm

More than blessed

My clique surprised me with a birthday cake!
It never crossed my mind that I would still have a birthday cake even when my birthday is over.
Thank you guys! I'm genuinely more than blessed to have you people in my life!

01 The girl behind me has all evil intention to steal my cake! (Hahahahaha)
02 Yi Han, my Hanneh! :')

03 Class photo with my wonderful S24!
04 The guys are pretty formal.

05 Anh and Hong Thu made a really beautiful birthday card! Thank you so much girls! :')
06 Hui Bin Mama's birthday card for me. :')

07 / 08 Ying Shuang and Li Yin from S23 got me a birthday balloon! Thank you so so so much! :')

09 / 10 My birthday twin, Kelly from S23. Same birthday as me!

11 Hockey girls surprised me with a birthday cake, hockey team bag and a birthday card with my eye candy's birthday wish! :')
12 A super LOL self-shot of myself and the birthday cake from hockey girls.
The girls had actually been planning for the birthday surprise a few days before my birthday.
How bless can I be to have them as my team mates? :')

Thank you so much for making my 18th birthday such a memorable one because I never thought that I would still have so many
surprises from you all. Thank you so much girls. Thank you so much friends!
Thank you to all because you all have really made my 18th birthday a super special one!

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01 April 2012 @ 08:25 pm

18th

Just a simple birthday lunch on my birthday @ Concorde Hotel.

I've gotten my first lesson learnt on the very first day of being an 18-year-old girl.

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31 March 2012 @ 11:13 pm

Visual Journal

01 My wooden ring box where you can find my stash of rings.

02 Verses on the cork board in front of my study table.

03 Some stamps I got last year.

04 I think this web page is as good as dead; 90% dead

05 Finished watching Perfect Deception today. It's an awesome show to watch. Filled with mysteries.

06 Survived on Post's Cranberry Almond Crunch for breakfast and lunch - 2 bowls.
I strongly prefer Post's Blueberry Morning cereal.

07 McDelivery at a quater past 5 and dinner is settled.

Funshion on iPad has made things easier for me. I finished watching Howl's Moving Castle and Ponyo! For the rest of the day, I chilled in front of my laptop catching up with Perfect Deception and watching a few other random shows - Friends and HIMYM. Got my camera ready and snapped away at home. This explains the pictures you see in this post. I wasn't sure what I could do alone at home so I picked my birthday outfit. Then I started ironing clothes and trying to clear the dining table. It was in a mess. Pamphlets, flyers, magazines and newspapers were lying all over the place. That's practically how I spent my day. Haven't had a chance to spend my weekend like that for months.

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31 March 2012 @ 02:16 pm

When the lights die

Sweets that will save you during lectures and tutorials.

My birthday is just a day away and you chose to use this time to be angry with me for something that wasn't entirely my fault.
Apologising for something that wasn't my fault, isn't that the highest form of respect?
What exactly she wants? She should stop being so childish and she should just sweep those stupid thoughts away from her mind.

"Ya I didn't respect you enough."
Say whut? Since when did I even say that you didn't respect me enough?
Those were your thoughts and they aren't true.
Your stupid thoughts got you nowhere. Instead, it made things worse.
You never fail to make atmosphere so awkward because of your thoughts that caused you to act like that.

I mean, don't come and disturb my conversation with someone and try to stop me from conversing especially when it's a serious topic.
She was being rude to interrupt me like that. Yes, she is my mum and I shouldn't have have said that she was rude but she really was rude!
And what? Because I stopped you from interrupting me, you get angry with me?

So does it mean that I can interrupt you like that too next time?
And then I can also get angry at you for reprimanding me of being rude and ill-mannered?

And now she's away and I have no fucking idea when they will be back.
Will they even be back on my birthday?

FUCK FUCK FUCK. FUCK IT ALL.

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29 March 2012 @ 11:30 pm

Choices

I guess the days after examinations are one of the few good-days in college.
I slept my nights away, doing none of the homework because I believe I deserve a not-so-long-yet-long-enough break.

Seated in the dining room today, with earpiece plugged into my macbook, I decided to tune in to Boyce Avenue’s youtube channel.
Memories started to surface from beneath. I don’t even know where I kept all these memories.
I guess deep down, I hope things were really still the same. So much so that I even dreamt of what I’ve been hoping to happen.

He let go, I stopped trying too. Was it even a wise choice to stop trying?
But I bet I’d be suffering more if I decide to keep trying and hang on to something that he never ever wanted.
Frankly speaking, I don’t know what he thinks about this friendship. Am I a burden to him in the past?
Am I making him feel better now? I guess I am. And If I am, then I’m glad that I’m not a burden to him.

People have choices. He has his choice of letting go of me. He has his choice of friends too. I’ll respect his decisions.

To be really truthful, I feel that he wasn’t worth my attention at all. As a friend I meant.
Little actions of his make me feel that I’m unworthy of everything I’ve done thus far.
The last thing that a lady would ever want to feel is to be left unwanted, to feel unworthy, to feel that she’s never enough,
to feel that she was never needed in the first place and to feel that whatever she has dedicated for you do not mean anything to you.
It’s the greatest insult and humiliation to a lady (well at least for me).
But what exactly kept me wanting to be a close friend of his was because I cannot forget the memories.
Friend, why are the things changing so much? So much so that as if we hadn’t have any memories before?

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